Changing Tides.

It seems again that the tides are changing,
Sloshing to and fro,
Feelings and thoughts and false accusations,
Up and down we go.

We’re all getting older,
Seems everything changes,
The places we go to,
Everyone’s faces.

In times of change,
Who do we rely on?
The moon changes tides,
So to the sky we look upon.

With nothing constant,
From the dark rolling thunder,
To the gentle lappings,
It feels they could all pull me under.

Then sometimes a life belt,
Helps me to float,
I’ll rely on it a while,
But it will give up, take note.

What a weeeeeek!

It's definitely been a stressful week this week!
Tuesday was the worst day of my week, it was highly distressing for me, luckily for me i have some pretty good friends that i can turn to in times like this, so i went to the park with them on wednesday and it helped me see things a little clearer.
Thursday was slightly stressful, but ended on a better note,
I finally came home from 11 days of housesitting on friday and it was nice to just sit down and spend an evening in the house with Katie & Dad.
Yesterday morning i went to look at BCU and everytime i visit a uni it just reinforces the fact that i cannot wait to go to uni, i really honestly can't wait!
Then i spent some much needed quality time with the boyfriend, which was the highlight of my entire week to be honest because i feel like that time is getting fewer and far between.
Today, as always, is the pile of homework to do, but i've had my porridge and bath and now i'm settled to work until i go and spend the night with Miss Wappers ;)



And as always, hoping for the texts that won't come until later, because no one texts me good morning nowadays.





Uni, i can't wait!



P.s. Blahblahblah on the subject of school work why don't i give it all up and become a housewife? Because really the stress & effort of year 13 work & UCAS is clearly nothing in the face of household chores. Cheers for the support.

1 Month To Gooooo :D

My Sister + Chocolate Brownies = Good Times!

Today is one month until my 18th! WOOOOO ;)

And i'm going to make this last month as a 17 year old count!

Today i've been to town with my dad to get Adam's 18th present & we had a nice coffee in Starbucks :)

I'm currently working through a moderate pile of homework with my ipod on shuffle and i am looking forward to staying with Adam again for the next 5 days :)

This hasn't been the best of weeks really it's been a bit rushed and stressful, but things should settle down now; i think i know what i want to do for my extended project and i think i have some idea about UCAS & uni's i wanna go to :) Katie's 19th meal was a good night out and a good end to the week ;)

Be good to yourself because nobody else has the power to make you happy! So bring October on ;)

Wake Me Up When September Ends.

Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars, drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are. How i love green day <3

I can't wait for this month to be over and into october, november, december; here we move into the midst of autumn, the time to get cracking with revision & UCAS. The time to pull out my scarves and hoodies, or should i say David's hoodie. The time of looking forward to snuggling up in bed. The things i'm waiting for: my big sisters birthday, my birthday, my holiday to Lapland, christmas shopping.

This month has been one big stress of starting year 13, an increased workload, loneliness and a bunch of bad news, but we move on, into another month and we continue to live. I hope this lonely feeling subsides soon and that the hard work won't be wasted.

This week I'm enjoying staying with Adam, it's easy living, comfortable and just generally makes me happy :)
However, I'm in the mood to go to bed right now and be woken up when september ends, though i probably wouldn't mind skipping october too. Oh well, tomorrow will be better.

Remember That I Love You ♥

'Cause i like to be gone most of the time,
And you like to be home most of the time,
If i stay in one place i lose my mind,
I'm a pretty impossible lady to be with ♥



Listen to it :)

What's the point?

What's the point in being alive if you're not gonna live your life?
What's the point in being a friend if you don't act like one?
What's the point in being together if you can't compromise?
What's the point in having a chance just to waste it?
What's the point in giving up halfway through the fight?
What's the point in hurting others when you hurt yourself?
WHAT'S THE POINT?

The point is that you find the point, the meaning to your life, you find out what you want and how to make it happen; if you don't - your loss, if you do - your gain. And if there's no point in the action, think about the consequences and find the things that HAVE A POINT.

Family ♥

Just this second a thought has come to light in my head that i want to share with you my readers.
Using the ever faithful dictionary the 10th definition of family is;
a group of people who are generally not blood relations but who share common attitudes, interests, or goals and frequently, live together.

I want to take this opportunity to discuss MY family. Of course my family is made up of blood connections; My Dad - David, My Mom - Janet, My Sisters - Katie & Toni, Grandparents - Tony & Pauline, Margaret & Ken, Aunties - Julie, Jayne & Jen, Uncles - Daryl & Alan, Cousins - Ash, Mart, James, Russ, Becky, April & Zoe.
Then of course my family who share my attitudes, interests and goals, the people i spend a lot of my time with; My Boyfriend & Best Friend - David, My Best Friends - Jade, Chloe & Adam.
I LIVE with all of these people frequently; they share my life on a daily, weekly, monthly, yearly basis. Every person mentioned in this blog has known me at least a year and at most - my entire life. You do not have to be blood related to be family, you have to care and be there, you do not earn a place in a family, the place is already there waiting to be filled.
Whatever happens in life, you always fall back on your family - blood related or not, and MY family means the world to me ♥

I need to breathe

Sometimes i feel like i can't breathe, like i'm suffocating. Suffocated by this longing, crushed by the despair of the loneliness, the waiting.
Sometimes i wish that you would just say here's a whole day just for me and you, because it's what i need, what i crave, i struggle and suffer through the whole week, scraping by on a few hours a night maybe, and hope that i will get rewarded for my patience, but the impatience takes over when you say you don't know, or that i can't have it, and i feel like screaming, breaking something. I'm trapped in a prison that i guess i've made for myself, but you don't hear my pleas.
Take me in your arms and tell me that the day is mine, i'm a fool for hoping, for waiting, but i need it so desperately.
I'm so close to letting it take me today, i need to get out, but not just anywhere, i need to get out to you.

7weeks to gooooooooooooo.

November 3rd - Ready Or Not Here I Come!

Guess today i'm a little excited, 7 weeks till i'm 18, and i can't wait! Or can i?

I'm on both sides, so much to do so little timeee - revision, personal statement, get a new job!

But on the plus, i've been with my boyfriend almost 4months and it feels like only yesterday, but so long ago. Today i spent some much needed quality time just me and him, no interruptions so we could just relax :) and we went out to the cinema, to see Scott Pilgrim Vs The World and typically clumsy, i managed to kick his bottle of pop so it rolled away :')

So i wonder what's to come in the next 7 weeks, because a lot happened in the last 7 and i'm sure the next 7 will be full of surprises too.

Happy but tired, the countdown continues xx xx x

I Normally Hate Sundays

It's quite a widely known fact amongst my friends how much i hate sundays. And normally, i do. I'm normally all edgy and frustrated because i'd rather be anywhere than sitting at home in my room all day and i let myself get worked up over boredom.

Brilliant music ;)

Yet today is different, i feel so calm and relaxed. I went with my dad to take my sister to work and went to the vodafone shop to change my contract and that in itself made me feel better. Then i've come home and got something to drink and some snacks, and sat in my room listening through the old Katy Perry, Lady Gaga albums & the new Paramore album whilst getting stuck into my first week of A2 homework. And honestly, i feel calm and content just sitting in my room listening through my music and doing my work.

Although there is a slight irony in that i am currently doing homework on the sociology of the mass media and indulging in such media as music, iPod & the internet :) and i'm looking forward to seeing Paramore again soon, but mostly looking forward to my sunday dinner & bath tonight!
Happy sunday readers! <3 x x