I need to breathe

Sometimes i feel like i can't breathe, like i'm suffocating. Suffocated by this longing, crushed by the despair of the loneliness, the waiting.
Sometimes i wish that you would just say here's a whole day just for me and you, because it's what i need, what i crave, i struggle and suffer through the whole week, scraping by on a few hours a night maybe, and hope that i will get rewarded for my patience, but the impatience takes over when you say you don't know, or that i can't have it, and i feel like screaming, breaking something. I'm trapped in a prison that i guess i've made for myself, but you don't hear my pleas.
Take me in your arms and tell me that the day is mine, i'm a fool for hoping, for waiting, but i need it so desperately.
I'm so close to letting it take me today, i need to get out, but not just anywhere, i need to get out to you.