Pining.

Pining -
verb (used without object)
1. to yearn deeply; suffer with longing; long painfully (often fol. by for ): to pine for one's home and family.

2. to fail gradually in health or vitality from grief, regret, or longing (often fol. by away ): Separated by their families, the lovers pined away.

3. Archaic . to be discontented; fret.

–verb (used with object)

4. Archaic . to suffer grief or regret over.

–noun
5. Archaic . painful longing.

This week, it is safe to say that i am pining. Pining for his voice, pining for the feel of him in my arms, pining for his bouncy hair, pining for his touch. It has been a very long week, the days seem to pass crippilingly slower than usual, each hour does not pass fast enough, each day does not turn into the next soon enough. Counting the days just makes my suffering more painful. It's a painful longing, it burns. I can't forget it for even a fraction of a second, it's there in the back of my mind, it can be pushed to the back, but not forgotten, and it resents being shunned.
But upon reunion the pain will evapourate.
And as the reunion can now be seen on the horizon, the bitterness and pain and longing flare viciously, but the pleasure will be worth the pain. And although the horizon is ever so slowly nearing, i know i've almost made it and that i will get there.